# Breeze of wind ;

"Yesterday is hitory, tomorrow is mystery, and today is a gift"
That's why it's call 'present'

Saturday, February 25, 2012
Last blogged @

Hey everyone? It's like finally since i get back on blogs.

So bored on this already but i just do some post will do.

Love deardear~ He's always cute when he sleep and do whatever things. <3

Hmm yesterday stay overnight at Kor's house with ethel and dear. Haha

His house aircon forever cold. Made us keep snatching blanket from each other.

Taking photos with my sister also, and play with her.

Haha she very friendly, i really treat her like DAMN good sister and beat her. XD

Which i don't really do that on alot of people.

Hahaha love her lots lots! XD

I really feel like a family whenever i'm with them.

Time passes damn fast when i'm with them.

Today afternoon when to Tamp mall.

Some guys bullying dear on max tune and laugh at him.

I was over protective and scolded them like shit.

Then kor came over, his face is very black cause i find troubles.

I don't know why, i'm damn scared of him.

It's like i treat him as my real brother, when i did something wrong, he's gonna scold me.

When he talk to the other guys, i was really angry.

When he came over, he looked at me first,

I don't know why, i hide behind dear.

Then i burst out with tears.

He didn't say anything but just say take it as a misunderstanding with a normal tone.

Then he went back to those guys and talk to them.

Sis calm me down eventually.

Guess i'm too protective towards my love ones beside me.

Especially i cannot see them getting bully by other people.

I'll really feel like killing them.

And just because of this incident.

I realized, i really treat Kenneth as my real brother..

He might not be it, because he got other younger sis too.

But for me, i only got him as my elder. And never had a second one anymore.

And after that, he caught me a piglet at prize stage! Thanks! :)

Monday, January 30, 2012
Last blogged @

Okay it's been a fking long time since i post.

Today is me and dear's 8th month, we break each other record alr.

This morning gave him a small prank.

Can say so is surprise too. Hahaha.

I tell him say i not meeting him whereas i'm meeting my ex audi couple.

Then say i might not meet him, i make him until very angry.

Then i i waited for him at tanah merah inter.

When he first saw me, he gave me a black face.

And his tone is very angry.

Then when i say ' I lied, i came all the way to fetch you. '

Immediately, a smile came through his face.

And he hug me tightly, like he never seen me for years.

Guess i've success making his day even though it's not a good beginning.

I tell him, ' How would i ever leave you with some other guys during our anniversary? '

It'd never happen. :)

He changed my life from bad to good.

I can't describe how much i love him, because it's through my heart.

Alright, i should stop my bullshit again. ><

Today went to amk hub as usual.

Okay i really get bored of it.

I want work! Gosh.

My appeal fail again, fk ite.

I got alot of things to clarify, but i just don't know how to start.

I don't like irritating people. It's pissing me off.

I hate copycats.

I realized there's not just one or two.

It's more than that, it's even worse.

Okay i want sleep alr.

Nights.

And, HI JAMES. I KNOW YOU'RE STALKING ME! :D

Kbye.

Saturday, January 14, 2012
Last blogged @

Okay finally i'm back yo. :)

Just came back to do some posting to make my blog alive.

Alright i'm gonna say something to someone.

That someone is important to me, but the problem is.

By the actions she does, it makes me decrease the percentage.

First of all.

She copy every of things.

Which i don't like it at all.

I think she really wanna copy completely like me?

Stop copy my appearance.

Stop copy my blog songs.

Stop copy my pump songs.

Stop copy how i talk usually.

Stop copy MY EVERYTHING.

I got tolerate much.

Then yesterday when i heard them say.

' She want copy you cut side bangs alr '

I jitao fking no mood and very angry.

I don't even bother to talk much to her alr.

But she's still sticky to me.

And one more, she likes to keep por me.

Like mummy here and there.

Is not i don't want her to call me.

But every sentence she say got a mummy in the start or the end.

Other people sees like abit, weird that why she's like that.

I really don't know how to change her already.

These few days she keep with valerie.

Sometimes because of her, she keep go out with her.

Because of what?

She still dare to say yesterday, money.

Me, dear, huiyi and haishan heard it.

We jitao turn back and walk off from her.

Now we know that you choose money over us.

But choosing money and go out with people you don't like, worth it?

I think i still choose my loves one that is poor but we're happy together.

We don't need money to survive.

No money play arcade? Go playground slack and talk lor.

Some people no money eat? We SHARE.

I don't know how to tell you all these.

But now i post this.

Guess you also will read it.

So yeah. Please reflect on yourself.

Sorry if i'm cold to you these few days.

Because i need a break.

Please change yourself for not to keep copy people.

Thanks. ==

Today suppose to go church, wake up at 5:30am just to scared i'm late.

Bath, prepare everything.

Done my bread for dear and me because i want save money.

At 6plus, he say can don't go?

I jitao no mood and change off everything.

Then went back to sleep for awhile.

While he doesn't even know that i throw away the bread.

Hais nevermind. But i still love him alot. ><

Gonna meet my punks later. Byeeeeeeee. <3

Sunday, January 1, 2012
Last blogged @

Hi! I'm back for blogging! (:

This few days or weeks was too lazy to blog. ;x

But at least i came back right!

Haha, anyway.

Happy 2012! :D

It's a bright new year,

Let's put all the past behind and stay our new road.

I really hope after today, dear and me won't quarrel because of past again.

As we've been thru so much, 7months of love.

What do you think?

It's like, i cry for the first day of 2012.

That's ridiculous.

But nevermind, let all those sad things past.

I really hope that he would not bear grudges.

Just forget it all, and leave it behind.

Because i'm trying to do so too!

I doesn't wants to say him with any other of his past ex(s).

Because it's all last year!

I wanna start a new year and happy year with him. :)

5more months to me and his 1year.

I really hope we can pass it no matter what.

During 1st Jan that night,

Dear became very sweet, and gentle.

He's whispering 'Iloveyou' to my ear, and he give me a gentle kiss on my lips.

I really hope he can be like this forever.

Because the original him is.

If he can't tolerate much, he'd vent anger and attitude on me.

I hope he'd change.

I quarrel with him, Samuel and Zhixian came over and talk to me.

I just realized how sweet was Zhixian. :)

She hug me and ask me not to cry already.

Although she wasn't very good for comforting people.

But she's just 11. So i understand. :)

She's my one and only Nuer. Haha.

Yesterday i can't imagine, Kenneth and Ethel join us for catching?! HAHA

I really thought he'd say it's childish or they'd sit at the side.

But they join us and having fun!

Haha, that's rare.

Really hope that would happen everytime. :)

But school going reopen, they say they going to chiong their studies.

Hais, hope we still can meet sometimes. :)

Today i suppose to go Sweetlove's house to practice singing,

But i wanna go out with Dear and actually she needed to go out with her friend.

So i tell her postpone bah. :x

Then today meeting dear, don't know who will join us too. :/

Anyway! I'm so in loved with the song ' Never alone '

HAHA. Forcing Sweetlove to listen alot of times and sing with me. :D

Alright i should stop here. :)

Thursday, December 15, 2011
Last blogged @

Hi earthlings .

This post would probably express my feelings out perhaps .

I just doesn't know how i feel now .

And i don't even know what do i want .

I stress , depress , sad , hurt enough .

Totally enough .

People knows i don't bias , i side the right side .

Yes , i might get some difficult in between of everything .

But do you think i want ?

Currently , i'm not afraid to let you all know .

This morning , was out with my boyfriend .

And i got the feeling that , i feeling fade towards him .

I even tell him , and tell him it might not be true .

I don't know why , is it the devil doing the ugly job ?

I just thinks that i don't love him as much as i usually do .

I really cried , i craving more kiss from him .

To let myself not to feel that uneasy feelings .

I really wants to cry out loud , and let Lord to save me .

But is it even able to save ?

At the evening , it's like suddenly .

I love my boyfriend alot , and i told him .

IT'S NOT a feeling fade .

It's not !

It's not .

It's not ...

I hope it's really not .

Writing this post let me drop much tears , even now .

I really hope God would help me .

It's not about him , it's about me .

I love him .

I don't know what's my feelings doing .

Why does everything came in together ?

I'm not strong ..

I'm strong enough ..

I'm totally not strong ..

Please save me from the edge , before i would fall down the deep trap .

Now , whatever i wants to do .

Is to die .

It's been so long since i thinking about die .

Because i used to think of die everytime ..

And anything i do .

I wants to MIA 2days , and have a think about everything .

Please don't contact me .

But before i MIA this 2days .

I would write some notes for some of you .

Sebastian (Boyfriend) :

Hi dear . :)

I really thanks you for giving me that lovely piglet for my X'mas .

You're the first guy that buys me X'mas present .

I really appreciate alot .

I love you , deeply .

Truly , i never ever think of cheating on you anymore .

Because you're my Mr . Right .

People said , now my feelings became like that ,

Maybe is because our time is out up soon .

But no , i won't .

I won't ever let this happen .

But just let me cool down for 2days .

Don't contact me , let me think about it and let me decide everything over and over again .

I hope i would find out the answer using this 2days .

I love you alot , wait for me k :)

I wants to make miracle around us .

I wants to make things possible .

It's not the end .

I just want you to be perfect in my eyes .

But you know me , although i put boyfriend first .

But i can't throw my other love ones aside .

I need every of you .

I just hope you won't show faces , attitudes .

I hope you would change this two things because of me .

Because i wants you to bond with my other loves .

I hope you would change .

Don't think too much .

I love you . <3

Samuel (Brother) :

Don't feel sad that you say anything wrong .

Nah you didn't . :)

I just being a crybaby crying for nothing .

Don't think too much okay ?

You're always the best brother i had in my life . :)

Yes , i wasn't really happy of what you done .

You know what ?

Which is got things , and refuse to tell me just that you scared i would felt difficult .

You say you doesn't wants me to be difficult ,

And just wanted to walk away .

But hello ? You're still my close ones .

Seeing you like that , do you think i would just let you walk away like that ?

I wants everyone of you to be happy .

Not sad , moody because of something .

I wants you all to bond and be close .

I understand your feelings .

I hope you understand mine too ..

Emily (Darling) :

Hi darling , looks like i've to pangseh you for two days again .

Sorry okay ? I hope you can forgive me .

Hope you would be fine and also happy always . :)

I hope that no one attitude you too .

If that person attitude and made you moody .

Tell me okay !

I'll be up for you .

But after 2days :)

Sorry , really need a rest this few days . :(

Smile .

Haishan (Bestie) :

Hi bestie , thanks for cheering me up in message when i'm stress .

And do stupid thing to make my laugh although it's not funny at all .

This two days won't be going out because stress ah .

You should know de .

Hais , stay happy . :)

Kelly (Sweetlove) :

Hi sweetlove , i know we're close for a few days and now i need MIA again .

I just abit stress .

Didn't know did you change your attitude not .

Someday i wanna see again haha .

Don't sad over guys okay .

Especially those that made you cry like dog .

Haha ok laaa stay happy :)

Sylvia (Sweetheart) :

Hi sweetheart .

This few days i would emo abit ah .

Sorry , and won't be meeting you .

Hope you'd be fine .

Stay happy , and sorry for the things that i done to you .

I really sorry and guilty .

I didn't know whether you forgive me alr not .

I hope you do , but if haven't .

I understand :)

Seeya soon :)

After this 2days . I would change myself to a new person .

Please wait for me .

And don't contact me ,

Messages i won't reply ,

Calls i won't answer .

And please simply don't call my house or come up my house and find me .

I already said here clearly , give me a break .

For just these days .

Thanks ..

Sunday, December 11, 2011
Last blogged @

Hey ! I'm backkie !

Today dear dear is sick ! Having fever , heart pain :(

Hope he'll be fine tomorrow .

Hmm sad that i quarrel with mum again tomorrow .

Today all the way at amk doing nothing . ._.

Then our legendary chio bu came .

Everyone disiao , i sabo her to play with samuel .

Samuel kp me . HAHA .

But quite funny de lahh , she put NS but see other people notes .

Funny .

Okay i'm going to sleep now :)

Nights ! :)

Friday, December 9, 2011
Last blogged @

Currently at samuel's house .
Ton for a day , haha .
We took photos , camwhore-ing .
Yesterday midnight eat Mac , now waiting for pizza ?
Gosh , fat !!
HAha , having lots of fun here !
At 4plus emily came , awhile then i go sleep .
Tired max .
x.x
Okay i should go eat first , later then go home .
Still got amateurs outingggg !
Okay byeeeeee <3

Owner ,

CAROLINE.LJM ♥

16 this year , don't really intro much;
Don't judge me if you don't know me well;
Having an bad attitude & is changing slowly;

Currently, i'm attached;
To SEBASTIAN.OKS, at 3005110913; ♥

He changed my life , and myself too .
We plays pump , jubeat , music gun gun , max tune , audition , maple , l4d and alot together .
We're so in loved ! And now he's my longest boyfriend i ever had .
We've break each other's longest record! <3
It's all started with the 5arrows;

Mastermind ,

What's love?
It's just something that is extra in your life,
I don't believe anything truly,
But i rather just ignore the facts.
Life is what you get,
Life is short, do whatever you think is right.
Don't let a dead person to judge you.
You're smart enough to think through,
Learn to let go, don't cling on it as the others might be hurt.